Originally Posted by
fisetdavid26
I'm not sure I should post this but honestly I have no idea where to seek help, and I thought maybe you guys could help me.
I'm considering dropping school. Yes, really. I'm supposed to be at school right now. But... I didn't go. I'm considering dropping school after not even two complete weeks.
I'm currently doing subjects I couldn't do at high school, having failed maths in 4th year (high school is 5 years long here). I had to re-do my 4th year maths in 5th year, and failing meant I couldn't take physics and chemistry in 5th year either. I'm now doing them and 5th year maths. I wanted to go in 3D programming, video games and stuff. Then I realized maths are way too hard in this program, and I wouldn't make it considering even working very hard I struggle to pass maths. I'm not interested anymore anyway. I had to take the courses I'm currently doing to go there, but now that I changed my mind... I'm doing them for nothing.
I told my parents I wanted to drop school and wait until next year (autumn 2008) to start Administration, the sole program that tempts me. They didn't ask why I wasn't happy at school, they didn't ask why I wanted to drop school... they just said "We paid, you go". I have three choices: Continue school even though I don't like it and it's completely useless (according to me anyway), drop school and find a job, work a lot and save up money, or drop school and do nothing all day long here. Unfortunately the third option is my favorite. Maybe my parents are right when they tell me (on a regular basis) that I'm a total failure.
5th year maths are needed to go in a lot of programs. If I decide to go in Administration and don't like it, I'm probably screwed. I gotta hope I'll like it...
Sorry to bother you all with this. I just want to know what you guys would do, because right now I don't know, and my parents don't want to help.
I been there mate, I had some bad things happen and just lost interest and went a touch off the rails, I didn't want to do a thing i just wanted to give up and be left alone hatted it school the kids the teachers they all were treating me like shit i just wanted to stay at home get a job and be happier.
But today i really regret not going on more in school i wish i had my time over again but unfortanltly i cant so i do have regrets about not going further.
Today i still struggle with things i couldn't do at school, I can ad but mathematics I'm so shit it's not funny i really couldn't learn, But in time i learnt how to ad numbers which was my way of timetables etc, I was very good at school i tried and failed many times but i wish things were different cause i'd love to do it all again and win.
Funny thing is even if i went all the way through school today i would be still sitting here with the same job because sometimes life around you doesn't change no matter how much you think about future and past you seem to always end in the same spot in the end.
"Just a matter of time i suppose"
"The elevator is broke, So why don't you test it out"
"I'm not trapped in here with all of you, Your all trapped in here with me"